My Turn

Just as I thought the kiddos had pulled it together Ella's aftercare called around 4:30 to say she was running a fever. This is day 6 (minus one day fever free) of fever for her. It is freaking me out a little. It is just a little too reminiscent of her bout with Kawasaki's when she was 2. If she still has a fever in the morning Dr. G wants to check her out. I took her to see the doctor on Friday, but couldn't get in with Dr. G (our friend) and was basically blown off by the doctor I did see. Not in a bad way, but in a "well there is a bug going around" kind of way. I don't blame the doc. She has no other symptoms. Still, its my Ella and I worry!

I have informed Daddy that being as I have taken 43.5 hours of sick leave since February 22 (11.25 hours of which were actually for me), he is on duty. He's fine with it and sure he had a job transition in there and all, but I need to work in the office doing work like things!

On a personal front, I finally pulled it together enough to get in to see my doctor today! I have been having issues pretty much for the last year. For all of our sakes, I won't go into a lot of detail, but I pretty much blamed them all on Max's birth and getting things back to normal. That was until I realized that he is almost 15 months old. It is probably time to stop blaming him!

Off I went to see my favorite doctor in the world. Yay, Dr. J-C! She checked me out and is suspicious that I have something called Adenomyosis. Basically its endometriosis of the uterine wall. 2 times more likely in women who have had a c-section of which I have had two. So am I 4 times as likely??? Who knows. Regardless, this could very well explain all of my symptoms. The one that is bothering me the most is fatigue. Since the new year I have been more tired more consistently than at any time in my life, including during the first trimesters of both pregnancies combined. Yes, I know I have a baby and a 5 year old and a job and a life, but seriously, I should not be this tired. Again, though I'd like to blame Max I really can't since he sleeps almost every night from 7ish pm to 7ish am. And has since he was about oh I don't know 8 weeks old!

Back to my point, this "condition" can also cause anemia (which I tend to be anyway) and anemia can cause you to be pretty damn tired. To be sure I had blood work done today and I will have a sonogram on Thursday. We'll see where we go from there. There are a couple of options, 1 surgical that actually seems like the best fit. Another is to go back on the pill. Don't want to do that. Don't need to do that. The third is minimally invasive but also involves pumping hormones into my bod, which after 15 years of doing that I am not too interested in doing again.

Bottom line is I am tired of being tired. I am tired of whining about being tired. I want to get back to normal. At least now I am dealing with it instead of just blowing it off. That's me --- extremely vigilant about the care of my family, not so much on top of things that pertain to me intimately!