On Our Own!

Its our first day totally on our own. It's amazing how quickly life gets back into a rhythm. Daddy went back to work today after working from home last week. Gramma went home after spending the weekend with us.

The girl and the husband were out the door by 7 am. So its just me and the boy. Its a bit lonely, since he spends most of his time looking like this (see picture) but it is so sweet. I am really (against my normal instinct) trying to just take it slow. Enjoy the moments. With the girl I was overwhelmed and in a huge hurry to get from one phase to the next. Now looking back almost 5 years later I see how fast it all went by. She will start kindergarten in September and I swear her little life is just like a blink now looking back. So I will try to breathe, relax, and enjoy the next 6 weeks or so!

I am still a bit emotionally overwhelmed by it all. To think that just weeks ago we still had no idea how things would turn out for us. To think that just about 10 days ago he was in the NICU. Its hard to believe he is home, safe and sound and just fine. After all the drama of the pregnancy, its hard to adjust to a seemingly normal, uneventful life. I am grateful for the lack of drama .. don't get me wrong .. it is just an adjustment. My emotions range from very high and super mommy to a little blue. Not a lot blue, just weepy. I think as the reality of it all sinks in ... what is and what could have been ... I work to adjust and understand it all. I have been holding my breath for the last 5 months or so, and its gonna take a while to completely exhale.